This is not another boohoo post. I'm seriously annoyed with my emotions right now.
I've been crying a lot lately. Nearly every day for the last week. His next D is coming up very quickly, but I've never been this emotional before. Never ever ever. I have of course had my share of tear-fests at the actual time of 'goodbye'. But, never in the weeks leading up to it.
I'm starting to think it has nothing to do with him leaving. I think I might just be getting tired of being apart all the time. I'm not sad in general. I think being apart is just getting really old, seriously inconvenient, and kinda frustrating. (For those of you joining me in the middle of this story, in order to keep my job that I love and pays well/pay off debt/be financially on top of things when he's done/afford dancing/various other reasons, we live 3 hours apart and only see each other on the weekends... most of the time... for only half the year... the other half he is underwater...)
Anyway, this crying thing is really bugging me. On my drive back home this weekend. I cried when we said goodbye, which I haven't done in a long time from just a weekend goodbye. I cried to the first song I heard on my ipod. And then another one when i was almost home. I was feeling fine, too. I was just singing along and then the lyrics said one little thing and there I went again. Then last night, i was watching some sitcom... there I went again, then the end of some old peter pan movie (not Hook, but live action), crying some more! Seriously?! Little miss wet cheeks over here.
I'm gonna go ahead a try to blame PMS, cause this is getting ridiculous. It's not that I'm sad all the time. Just the typical pre-D blahsies. Just so many stupid things have been setting me off lately and I'm really tired of it. I mean the last time, I didn't even feel that sad, the tears just started coming out of my eyes and I remember thinking, "Really? Again!?"
And before anyone asks, no... I am not pregnant. 110% sure. Thus the PMS.
*jumps up and down spinning in circles*Happy Happy! Come on happy. Tears, knock it off wouldja!