This is how you know I am really upset about something. I don't want to talk about it. It's taking a lot for me to write this right now. I don't want to think about it.
He started "cranking" today. Basically he's working in the kitchen. It's a job that every new guy does and is a notoriously crappy job. The hours alternate between 16 hour and 8 hour on and off shifts. I can remember which order he said. And it's 7 days a week. That's the big kicker. No weekends. For a long time. Likely until he deploys again.
*long sigh* He won't be coming down on the weekends anymore so, it's going to be a while before I get to see him again. :( It's not even worth it for me to go up to see him because he wouldn't have any time anyway.
And in between all this he still has to be working on his quals. So, he's going to be very busy, very tired, and very far away.
Yesterday when he told me, I didn't even react. I felt like i was just so used to the Navy doing this stuff, and it's just another thing to deal with. I can't change it. Why get upset about it. But now it's setting in and I am upset about it. Fighting back tears a little bit while writing this.