I love my hubby!!! :D

Today is my birthday, and Hubby arranged to have these gorgeous flowers sent to me while he's underway! He knows pink gerber daisies are my favorite. 

I love love love love him!!! Thank you baby! Can't wait for you to come home!

Wordless Wednesday - Sorta

I completely forgot that I took these pictures a couple of weeks ago.

He has quite the geekdom set up in his barracks room. It makes him very happy.

He has 7 - count'em, SEVEN computers here. Oh? you only see 6 monitors? He has a switch so one of his monitor can go back and forth between two different computers. He can't possibly look at ALL those at the same time anyway right?

Let's take a closer look, shall we?

Head in the clouds...

Oh, so this morning I was feeling pretty emo. Again... imagine that.
I figured that you all are probably getting tired of me talking about how much I've been crying. So, instead, I thought I would turn it into something pretty. I haven't been doing much at work the last few days, so I figured I might as well get some designing done this week. 

Enjoy my brain dump, in fluffy cloud form. 

What a nice sunny day to put me in a sad mood.

I love sunny days. I hate sunny days...

Here is how my emotions went today:

Woke up - I'm gonna be productive today, I can see the sun is shining. I have the groceries coming and I'm going to clean the kitchen before they get here.

Started to clean - Look at how productive I'm being. He would be so proud of me to see how nice the kitchen looks. I think I'll clean some of the living room, too. Go me!

Groceries are delivered - This is so great! I'm so clever for discovering this. I'm going to do it every week. It's so nice to have food in the fridge. 

Left for Capoeira - Look at me being all independent. I feel good. I can keep myself busy while he's gone no problem. 

Stopping at the craft store on my way to Capoeira - (mini crash) gosh look at all the cute stuff. I want to make something for a baby. Babies... man, I am so ready to have a baby. I really want to start a family with him. I don't care, we'll figure it out... oh wait.. no can't do that. I'd have to pack up everything and move and I can't even do that until after he gets back from this underway. Then I'd have to give notice at work. By the time I can move up there we'd have only a little over a year before he's out of the Navy. Why would I leave my job and dance when he'll be back in just over a year. Well crap, I guess I have to wait. Now I'm frustrated, and kinda sad.

At Capoeria - Wee this is so much fun and I'm going to get in such good shape. He'll be so surprised when he gets back and see's all the things I've learned in this class!

Leaving Capoeria - CRASH AND BURN!!!  Hmm, I don't really want to go home to my empty apartment. And look at what an awesome sunny day it is. I wish he was here to do something in this awesome sunshine. We'd go running, or hiking, or biking, or something. We'd do something outside, together! Man, I hate sunny days. :(  I guess I'll just go back to the apartment, alone... and eat some of that food that I just had delivered. I've got nothing else to do anyway. I am sad. And lonely. Stupid sunny day.

Ok, ok I still love a sunny day. In general it picks up my spirits, but MAN does it really make me miss having my mister around. So, here I sit, drinking my "tactical post-workout catalyst" protein shake, dumping my brain into my blog. I feel a little better. At least tomorrow it's supposed to rain. :)

Yeah, what he said...

I saw this video on Married my Airman.

Frikin hillarious and oh so true.

We, as wives/SO's, are all fighting the same fight back home to support our men. Can't we all just get along?

I also like the part at the very end for the guys. :)

Watch, laugh, learn.

The long lost Friday Fill-in.

I haven't done one of these in a while. I think I'll jump back on it this week due to a serious lack of real content in the last few weeks.

So here we go. Link up here, with Wifey.

1. What is your must have gadget? submitted by Flying High With My Flyboy
Hmm... I'm not really one of those gadgety kinds of people. But, I always have my phone and my ipod touch with me. (I really should just get an iphone, but I don't want to spend that much for the service plan)







2. How does your adulthood compare to what you imagined it would be like when you were a little kid? submitted by L to the Third
As a kid, I don't think I really imagined what my adulthood would be. In highschool I was pretty sure that i would be stuck in some retail job forever, or get lucky and find a rich man who would take care of me. :)  I ended up with neither of those scenarios, and I'm glad. I have a great job and can take care of myself. I'm active, and confident and doing much better than I ever though I would. (Oh did I mention I had very low self esteem when I was younger.) 
I also never imagined I would be married to a sailor and be a military wife! So far that's working out, too. :)

3. What is your favorite chocolate recipe?  submitted by Our First Deployment
Umm, the ones that include... chocolate!!!

4. How do you deal with military life when it gets to be to much or to hard? submitted by Combat Boots And Pointe Shoes
So far I don't think I have hit the point of too much or too hard. A lot to handle, yes. Hard, yes. But I haven't been in the realm of "too", yet. But, when it gets difficult... I cry, and then I find friends who care about me, and I distract myself, and deal with what i need to do. Then I grow from it, get stronger, and keep going.

5. What piece of advice would you give a new Military spouse facing their first deployment?  submitted by The Albrecht Squad
Communicate with your husband! Talk about all your emotions going into it. And make sure you get all the information you need. 

Set personal goals for your deployment (lose weight, learn a skill, improve something, make something, start a project, etc). And, keep busy! The time goes by much faster when you are trying to accomplish something during several month stretch, rather than just waiting it out. Plus, then you have something to be proud of to show off to hubby when he gets home.

Nail down some support. If you family isn't near you, find a couple really good friends. Or, a good community activity with people who care about you.

Take a deep breath. You're gonna be OK!

Lazy?

Lazy? Perhaps I am. Or, perhaps I run around like a crazy person from one place to another every single day except one. And, I don't want to spend that one day grocery shopping. It is probably my least favorite thing to do, ever.

So, tonight I placed my very first online grocery order to be delivered on Sunday in the one hour window of my choice! I can not tell you how excited I am for this. On my lunch at work from the comfort of my computer, while eating my subway sammich, I point-and-clicked my way through the isles and picked out everthing I needed. I forgot a couple of things, so I was able to go back and add them later. Better yet, there was no impulse shopping spurred by pretty candy packaging and merchandising. 

So, I got what I needed and it will be in my cupboards on Sunday. And, I get to spend my one day of not running around... in my jammies, eating my food that I ordered online. 

P.S.-  I am feeling considerably less mopey today. Although, I am still absolutely dreading the impending D. 

Progress?

Well, I was feeling better for a whole few hours yesterday. Getting out of the house and beating up on some thai pads helped. Though, i was a little too distracted for ballet last night.

I cooked dinner for myself from scratch. (Well, I boiled noodles and fried some ground turkey and flavored some tomato sauce) And managed to clean up the dishes I had let accumulate over the last couple of weeks. I was feeling good. Very proud of myself. I was even in a good mood when I had to wait up till like 1am or something to get on the web cam.

Then I found out that I don't get to see him again before he leaves. Sad face. :(

So, now I'm back to dopey mopey. But at least I didn't cry. Sigh...

My birthday is coming up. I have a fun night planned so I'm going to look forward to that.


Oh, and p.s. - I added a "follow by email" thingy. It's on the left about halfway down. In case you love my blog so much that you want to receive my posts via email. :D

Alright... WTH is wrong with me?

This is not another boohoo post. I'm seriously annoyed with my emotions right now.

I've been crying a lot lately. Nearly every day for the last week. His next D is coming up very quickly, but I've never been this emotional before. Never ever ever. I have of course had my share of tear-fests at the actual time of 'goodbye'. But, never in the weeks leading up to it. 

I'm starting to think it has nothing to do with him leaving. I think I might just be getting tired of being apart all the time. I'm not sad in general. I think being apart is just getting really old, seriously inconvenient, and kinda frustrating. (For those of you joining me in the middle of this story, in order to keep my job that I love and pays well/pay off debt/be financially on top of things when he's done/afford dancing/various other reasons, we live 3 hours apart and only see each other on the weekends... most of the time... for only half the year... the other half he is underwater...)

Anyway, this crying thing is really bugging me. On my drive back home this weekend. I cried when we said goodbye, which I haven't done in a long time from just a weekend goodbye. I cried to the first song I heard on my ipod. And then another one when i was almost home. I was feeling fine, too. I was just singing along and then the lyrics said one little thing and there I went again. Then last night, i was watching some sitcom... there I went again, then the end of some old peter pan movie (not Hook, but live action), crying some more! Seriously?! Little miss wet cheeks over here. 

I'm gonna go ahead a try to blame PMS, cause this is getting ridiculous. It's not that I'm sad all the time. Just the typical pre-D blahsies. Just so many stupid things have been setting me off lately and I'm really tired of it. I mean the last time, I didn't even feel that sad, the tears just started coming out of my eyes and I remember thinking, "Really? Again!?"

And before anyone asks, no... I am not pregnant. 110% sure. Thus the PMS.

*jumps up and down spinning in circles* 

Happy Happy! Come on happy. Tears, knock it off wouldja!

Wordless Wednesday

Ok, lets try posting something a little less boohoo today.

There are of course many many more reasons. :)

Can I get a little happy?

He hasn't even left yet and I'm already feeling really blue. I've just felt like crying for the last couple days. Yesterday, I did cry a little after finding an old song on my myspace profile. (See previous post)

All day today, I've just felt like letting go and bawling for a while. Maybe it's just pent up emotion, maybe it's PMS, maybe it's the weather, maybe it's my failed audition that I'm still sore from – and the fact that I can't go work out because I'm still so sore. Maybe it's just everything, but I could really use some happy right now. 

I only have one friend who lives close that I would really like to hang out with right now, but I know she's way too busy with finals to try and entertain my emo tushy...

I can't even work up enough enthusiasm to plan my birthday party.

How do you get happy when you're feeling down?

:/

I was rooting around my myspace (yes my myspace) just now and I came across this song that I still have on my profile... It made me cry. We're gearing up for D#2 and it's getting to me already. 

So much to blog, so little time!

I'm getting to the point lately where there is so much going on that I don't have time and/or energy to stop and tell you all about it! So much, in fact, that I can't really remember all of it. So, we'll just cover this weekend. This weekend resulted in my lying here with what I am pretty sure is whiplash.

Saturday night I drove two hours to go to a Vintage Hollywood themed ballroom dance at OSU with a friend. It was super fun. Well worth the drive. I got quite a few compliments on my dress, also. :) Sorry, I am bad and I have no pictures. There are supposed to be pictures from the event posted somewhere but I will have to go find those and see if I'm in any of them for you.

I didn't know any one there so it would have been a challenge to find people to dance with. However, luckily, said friend is awesome and made sure that she sent guys my way who could dance the particular dance that was being played that the moment, so I ended up with a pretty full dance card. I also decided to just get ballsy and if a song started and no one asked me, I just found some guys who were loitering walk into the middle of them and ask "who can dance tango/waltz/chacha/etc?"

Sunday I had a dance audition for group called Dolled Up. I'm not sure how to describe exactly what kind of dance troupe this is. The audition consisted of a hiphop/jazz routine and a broadway routine. None of these are in my dance vocabulary. I found out about it on Friday from a friend who read a facebook post about a piece of choreography i was working on. I figured it looked fun and would give it a shot since I probably wasn't going to see Monkey on Sunday anyway and I needed something to do. So, I went and I gave it my best. I worked it. I mean, i hit it as hard as i could . I have never danced so hard in my life. I danced so hard, in fact, that I gave myself whiplash. Yup. I can barely move my neck. I didn't make the team. *sad face* But, it did awesome for myself and I'm proud of myself for it. It is a little disappointing though, that my only souvenirs from an intense 8 hour audition are bruised knees, blistered toes, a sore Achilles tendon, and a neck injury! hahaha

Oh well, on to the next adventure!

Oh happy Ballerina day!

I just ordered new pointe shoes. They may not fit correctly, but they were only $20 on ebay, so if not no big deal. The soft 3/4 shank is what I was after but the toe box/vamp may be too short for me. We'll see. I can always just decorate them.

I love new pointe shoes. I also love dead pointe shoes. There is something about the dirty torn up satin that tells a wonderful story.